Last Saturday and Tuesday, I began telling the story of the sale of my Mazda, along with the vital spiritual lessons God was teaching me through this process. We left off with the gentleman who was offering me 6,500$ less than my asking price. He came to see the car, he liked it, and he left stating that he would contact me later in the evening with his decision.
Sure enough, he called. He said he was very interested in the car, but because it needed new tires, because there was apparently some kind of a “creak” in the driver’s door, and because the car hadn’t been detailed, he was offering me $500.00 less than the price we had agreed upon, which was already 6,500 less than Canadian black book value on the car.
Okay, I had had enough. Sure the car needed new summer tires; but wasn’t I throwing in a full set of good winter tires on rims? And that squeak in the door was purely ridiculous. I had never heard it! And the detailing? He was already stealing the car from me. He could jolly well go pay to have the car detailed himself! My ire was raised, my dander was up, and the stubborn look, the one I pray to never again let appear on my face, was firmly in place. There was NO WAY IN THE WORLD that I was going to back down!
The conversation ended with him promising to call me the next day with his decision.
The conversation also ended with a strong conviction that I had not handled that situation in a God-like manner… Doesn’t God tell us, “Beloved, never avenge yourselves, but leave it to the wrath of God, for it is written, ‘Vengeance is mine, I will repay, says the Lord.’” (Romans 12:17 ESV)? Hadn’t God told me to cut my losses and sell to this man? Hadn’t God convicted me already that the car wasn’t mine … It was God’s, and it was on loan to me to be used for the blessing of others? And … Hadn’t I already told the man that I was a Christian???
Then God began speaking to me about why I had been angry with his offer. It was all rooted in nothing more than that pure, unadulterated sense of … entitlement! Wasn’t I entitled to the rest of the money? Hadn’t I already done my humanitarian deed by allowing him to steal my car?
And this sense of entitlement was also peppered with my age-old arch-enemy … pride! How dare he find fault with my car! It was, after all, in EXCELLENT condition for its age and mileage! How dare he insult me and my car like this!
We’ll just say that it was a very long night as I struggled with my conscience… I repented of my pride and entitlement. After he sent the down payment and said he was getting the bank cheque to the original agreed-to price, however, I wasn’t sure how to backpedal, and I felt even worse. Oh God, thanks for delivering me from these demons, but I need to make things right!
It wasn’t until later the next day that God gave me the solution. We had a roof-top car carrier for the Mazda, one that cost us about 500$ new. I thought we might be able to use it on our new vehicle, and if not, I’d try to sell it. As soon as God put the thought of that car carrier in my mind, I knew that I was to offer it to the man. I told him if he wanted it, I would throw it into the deal to make up for the fact that I had refused his offer that cut my price by $500.00.
And that’s what we did. The man left feeling like he had made a good deal, and he even told me that it was a breath of fresh air to deal with me. God’s name was glorified, he got the car he needed for the price he could afford to pay, and he was ecstatic.
As for me? I felt that warm feeling of excitement that always goes along with doing God’s will. I also felt that a weight had been lifted from my shoulders, knowing that since God helped me win this battle against pride and entitlement, He would help me with the next one as well.
Friends, when God tells you to do something, you have to do it, no matter what. Even when it goes against your pride, and especially when it goes again your sense of entitlement. We have to remember: Nothing is ours! It all belongs to God. It is simply on loan to us to be used for His glory! If I could just learn this lesson, if we could all learn it, there would be so much less need in this world! And in addition, there would be so much less anger and hard feelings…
Isn’t this what the apostle Paul meant when he penned these words? “I therefore, a prisoner for the Lord, urge you to walk in a manner worthy of the calling to which you have been called, with all humility and gentleness, with patience, bearing with one another in love, eager to maintain the unity of the Spirit in the bond of peace. There is one body and one Spirit—just as you were called to the one hope that belongs to your call…” (Eph. 4:1-4a, ESV)
Prayer: Lord, help us to remember that all that we have is Yours to be used for Your glory! Break through the hasty holds of pride and entitlement, and set us free to be Your hands and feet on Earth! Yes, even when it means selling my car for half of its retail value and then throwing in some extra perks…
In His love,
Lynona Gordon Chaffart
Moderator, Associate Director, Answers2Prayer Ministries
(To access the entire “Selling My Mazda” mini-series, please click here.)