I have a landscaping plan. I want to put patio stone around the base of my circular clothesline, I want to build a planter box between the patio stone and the house, and I want to fill that planter with irises. Not the ordinary blue kind that bloom in the spring and then are done for the year; but the tall, bearded kind that bloom more than once a year and have unique colours.
I keep receiving “deals” for beautiful irises in my inbox. How I’d love to snatch up these beautiful bulbs! And of course, the fall is the time to plant them….
The problem is, new patio stone is extremely expensive, and the plan cannot be put into action until the patio stone is in place. I’ve been watching the local adds, and some good deals on patio stone have come up. Unfortunately, the seller has always given them to someone else before I could get there to pick them up.
I don’t get it. Why am I continually being “teased” with good deals on the tall, bearded irises, but the things I need to capitalize on these deals doesn’t materialize? Doesn’t God give us the desires of our hearts?
I don’t know the answer to this question. Nor do I know why whatever it is you are going through isn’t just “going away” so that you can capitalize on something that you long to do or be.
For example, you need a place to live. Rent is outrageously expensive, and a beautiful home for purchase comes on the market, just in the right location and listed at an affordable price that is under market-value. The only problem is, with rent bleeding you dry, you don’t have the down payment.
Or perhaps you have really been wanting to visit your kids out west. You haven’t seen them in years, and an opportunity comes up for you to be able to fly out at half-price. The only problem is, you’re not allowed to take the time off work!
I could give plenty of other examples, but I think you get the point. You are no doubt in a similar situation at the moment. And if you are human, you are more than likely asking why you are being “teased” with something you really want, when what you need to capitalize on it doesn’t materialize. And if you are human, then more than likely the question has come to your mind: Doesn’t God give us the desires of our hearts?
The Bible says He does: “Take delight in the LORD, and he will give you your heart’s desires.” (Ps. 37:4 NLT). And since the Bible is God’s inerrant Word, this would lead me to question whether or not I truly know what my heart desires!
Asaph, the one who wrote many of the Psalms, is quoted as saying: “But as for me, how good it is to be near God! I have made the Sovereign LORD my shelter, and I will tell everyone about the wonderful things you do.” (Ps. 73:28 NLT).
Skip back a few Psalms to Psalm 16: “You make known to me the path of life; you will fill me with joy in your presence, with eternal pleasures at your right hand.” (Vs. 11 NIV). In other words, it is the presence of the Lord that gives us our joy and our pleasures. But not just our pleasures, our eternal pleasures!
Could it be that while I’m begging God to fulfill His promise of giving me my heart’s desire to have a bed of tall, bearded Irises, God is smiling that all-knowing smile and saying, “Lyn, I know you think that tall, bearded irises are what your heart desires; but I made all the delicate, inner parts of your body and knit you together in your mother’s womb. I made you wonderfully complex. My workmanship is marvelous–how well you know it. I watched you as you were being formed in utter seclusion, as you were woven together in the dark of the womb. I saw you before you were born. Every day of your life was recorded in my book. Every moment was laid out before a single day had passed. (Paraphrased from Ps. 139:13-16, NLT). I know you, child, I know the true desire of your heart, and that is to … be with Me! I am the One who fills you with joy. The true desire of your heart is to be near Me!”
You know, just writing this down on paper makes me see how silly I’ve been acting because I haven’t yet been able to get my tall, bearded irises. I think I’ll spend some time in God’s presence today. Not to beg for tall, bearded irises, but to simply rejoice in His presence. And I’m going to meditate on the fact that when God doesn’t give me the desires that I think are of my heart, He is busy giving me the real desires of my heart!
What about you? Will you put aside your disappointments and join me in God’s presence?
In His love,
Lynona Gordon Chaffart, Speech-Language Pathologist, mother of two, Author — “Aboard God’s Train — A Journey With God Through the Valley of Cancer”, Author and Moderator for The Nugget, a tri-weekly internet newsletter, andScriptural Nuggets, a website devoted to Christian devotionals and inspirational poems, withAnswers2Prayer Ministries. Follow Lyn on Twitter @lynchaffart.