'Once upon a time' as the saying goes, the Lord woke me with a massively big undertaking. Let me tell you about it.
I had felt
totally bereft of His presence and had reached a crossroads. Did God
care at all about me or did He not? Was I still on His radar or had He
declared me out of bounds?
I had not done or thought anything
particularly wrong that would have given me such feelings of destitution
and yet I felt completely rejected.
After praying deeply for a
reply direct from Scripture I opened my Bible totally at random. It was
now or never. The Lord would give me a reply, a direction, or He would
not. There was a sense of finality in my being. So I turned my Bible
over and over in my hands with my eyes shut so there could be no
possibility of collusion in my thoughts, and opened it.
the reading seemed completely meaningless and left me just as destitute
as before I read it. I closed it quietly and sadly, believing I was
beyond the care or redemption of the Lord. I looked at the dawn, which I
often love to watch, and which was just beginning to lighten the hills
outside, and turned forlornly aside.
Then something persuaded me
to read the passage again. I opened it at the same place and read the
story again. It told of how Jehoiachin, king of Judah, the Lord's people
2nd Kings 24:12), had been
imprisoned by the king of Babylon and how the Babylonian king took
Jehoiachin out of prison and gave him a seat at his own table. In fact,
Jehoiachin was placed for the rest of his life, above the seats of all
the other Godless kings in Babylon at that time. (See
2nd Kings 25:27-30)
I felt I
knew how Jehoiachin felt while he was in prison because that is exactly
where I had felt I was -- in a lonely prison, excluded and unwanted by
But then Jehoiachin was taken out of prison and placed
above all other kings at the king's table? What was the Lord trying to
get me to see? Placed above all evil kings by the Lord -- was that
reasonable? Was it reasonable for me -- a very ordinary person of no
note? Yet it had happened repeatedly in the Old Testament. It happened
to Joseph, (See
Genesis 41:14), to Esther, (See
Esther 4:14), and to Daniel and his
companions under King Nebuchadnezer, in the Book of Daniel, and to
How utterly impossible for me! But true? Was it remotely
possible that I was meant to read these things? I sat in silence,
totally ambushed and overcome.
Then humbly I began to acknowledge
what the Lord wants all His people to understand, "I am the first,
and I am the last; and beside me there is no God." (Isaiah 44:6).
And in Revelation: "I am Alpha and Omega, the beginning and
the ending, saith the Lord, which is, and which was, and which is to
come, the Almighty." (Rev. 1:8)
The Lord Himself has
released from the prison of eternal exclusion all who have responded to
Him. He has placed them at His table where they are above the greatest
of all evil governments and kings in the world.
Wherever we are
placed, the Lord has His purpose for our being there. But remember, it
is the most dangerous place in all the world. We are tempted above all
others to abandon the will of the Lord and accept evil.
our position in life, our responsibility is to share what the Lord has
shown us and taught us. We are to sit with those around us and bring the
love of God to those who 'know not God.'
So please, if you are
feeling strangely out of place, or alone, or abandoned, may I sit near